Chapter XVI: Privilege
The sun should’ve been shining that day. But it wasn’t. The sky was a dull gray, like it knew better than to be happy. It didn’t dare disrespect the grief in the air. It stayed tucked behind the clouds, letting the silence speak louder than thunder ever could.
Amani Toles’ funeral was held in the First Baptist church on West Boyce Street, where the air smelled like old hymn books and sadness. Rows of people packed the pews—family, friends, teammates, teachers, even folks who only knew Amani as a name on a jersey or a highlight reel.
Dale sat in the second row, eyes fixed on the casket, draped with a freshly crisp white jersey. #13, immortal now. The school was retiring the number, and rightfully so.
He hadn’t cried yet. Not when the accident happened. Not when they buried Amani in his cap and gown. Not when his moms asked him if he was okay and he said “yeah,” even though he wasn’t. But now, with the choir humming softly behind a preacher spitting scripture about life and how short it could be…
That first tear snuck out the corner of his eye like a thief. And once it did, more followed.
He remembered Amani’s laugh, that wild hyena cackle that had no volume control. He remembered the way they’d argue about who was faster—Dale swore he was, Amani called cap every time. He remembered their secret handshake, the trash talk before practice, the plans they had after graduation.
Gone. Like a light switch. Just off. Just another reason why Dale didn't want new faces to become friends. That lingering attachment...
Coach Kennedy sat behind him, head bowed, sunglasses hiding his own grief. Dale could feel the man’s hand on his shoulder, firm like always, but different. Like he knew Dale needed it to anchor him.
When the service ended, and they loaded Amani into the hearse for the last ride, Dale stood at the edge of the cemetery grass, fists in his pockets, jaw tight.
He didn’t say goodbye. He didn’t believe in that word. He whispered, “I got you, bro.”
Then turned and walked away.
The days after blurred into June’s heat. It was that sticky South Carolina humidity that wrapped around your neck like a scarf you couldn’t take off. The world kept spinning, though it felt wrong that it did. Dale kept to himself mostly. School was done. Graduation already a memory. And Notre Dame? It loomed just weeks away.
But before the next chapter could begin, he had a summer to live. One last ride with Mark.
They worked odd jobs around the town—cutting grass, collecting clothes for the salvation, even helping Coach Kennedy set up his summer camp with middle school students. Dale didn’t do it for money. He did it to feel something. To stay busy. To keep Amani’s voice from creeping in too loud.
And Mark, once again, didn’t push. He was just there. With those one-liners, that old-school playlist, and a six-pack of beer on standby.
Every evening they sat on the back porch, sipping cold drinks and watching the sun crawl behind the treeline. Some nights they talked. Some nights they didn’t need to.
“Time flies, huh?” Mark said one night, flipping through a photo album with grease on his hands from working under the hood of his Explorer. “I still remember the day I picked you up. Your Mama looked tired of your hard-headed self. It was just me, you and the road.”
Dale smirked. “I wasn’t hard-headed. I was just... I don't know what I was. Guess I was trying to be a man before I could be.”
“You was both. Just like your old man...”
They both laughed. The kind of laugh that comes from shared pain and pride.
“I’m gonna miss this,” Dale said quietly. “I never thought I would be calling this place a home. But being around you, having the chance to spend time with you. Home here is a pretty sweet deal.”
Mark looked over, face soft beneath the porch light.
“I'm going to miss you too, Son. I never thought I would have this life, this chance at fatherhood... To tell you the truth... Having you here, and your mother here at the same time, it showed me a lot... All those years that I missed out on, that I ran away from. Even if it was those two occasions, if that's all I get to experience... Well worth it... I learned a lot, even at my age, Dale. That... I didn't run away because I wasn't ready. I was selfish, because I wasn't ready. And... I'm sorry, Dale. I'm sorry to you and your mother. It's very eye opening to me that I should've done better. But you came around, and I want to thank you for the opportunity... Thank you for letting me be your Dad.”
Dale nodded. He knew what that meant. Growth. Becoming more.
In late July, they took a trip to Charlotte—just the two of them. Mark wanted to do something special before Notre Dame called Dale away for good. They hit a WWE Smackdown show, ate too much barbecue, stayed up in the hotel room clowning around and arguing over old NBA debates, who was better: Magic or Bird, MJ or Kobe.
On the drive back, Mark gave him a man’s talk. Not a father-to-son, not even coach-to-player. Just man-to-man.
“Life don’t come with no playbook, Dale. You gotta call audibles on the fly. You gone make mistakes. You gone hurt people. People gone hurt you. But if you keep your heart solid and your purpose clear, ain’t nothing out there that can break you. Just don't run away from your fears. Don't do what I did. Keep your chin up and chest out. Be a better man that I ever will be.”
Dale listened. Not just heard him—listened. He would carry that talk with him, same way he carried his playbook, his cleats, and that framed jersey from Manning High.
Move-in day at Notre Dame came fast. Too fast. One moment he was walking the halls of Manning High, the next he was loading bags into Mark’s truck, saying goodbye at the airport terminal, and heading into a new life wearing navy and gold. Before they parted ways, Mark handed Dale a empty photo album, eyes glassy but proud.
"What's this? It's empty."
"I want you to take pictures and fill it up with your experiences." Mark asked of Dale.
"Come on, old man, get up with the times, I can send you pictures to your phone."
"No, no, I want the physical. Something you can touch. Something you can pass down for generations and test time. Something real."
"Okay, I get it. I will, I promise." Dale stuffed the album into his back pack.
“You need anything,” he said, pulling Dale in for a hug. “You hit my line. I don’t care if it’s two in the morning or two in the afternoon.”
“I got you, Pops,” Dale said, hugging him tighter than he ever had. Then they separated, and just like that, the chapter was done.
That night, Dale sat on his bed, dorm room window open, the Indiana breeze cool against his skin. He unpacked the last of his things, placing the framed jersey on the desk. Signed by the whole team. The one that said:
“Denton. #5. May this one year last forever.”
Next to it, he propped up a photo of him and Amani at the state championship, arms over each other’s shoulders, grins wide, helmets off, hearts full.
He stared at both. One for the past. One for the promise.
Then he laid back, closed his eyes, and whispered into the quiet: “No days off...”